Wavy Hair and Coleman Ranahan

“Do you want to take a leap of faith, or become an old man, filled with regret, waiting to die alone?” - Saito (INCEPTION).

Ok, that might be a tad extreme of a quote for something simple as quitting a minimum wage job to take on paid film work, but it’s a great quote. Especially since the risk I’m taking is money related.

From the beginning of March till the end of October I took a job for pizza delivery. Simple, easy, money. I give you hot cheese and bread, you give me money. I made friends, I made money, had some laughs along the way, and it saved me from going insane.

I turned down five offers over the summer, some which paid pretty well. Having to turn down offer after offer was a little demoralizing, which, given the industry, I’m sure happens all the time, but I’m just starting out. I’m hungry, I want EVERYTHING (that’s what she said). I want the opportunity to scale quickly, and I want the opportunity to meet great people.

Part of me feels like I let down all the people who threw my name out there. I know that’s not true, but I can’t help but feel that. I know I’m making a big deal out of something simple, but it’s a risk nonetheless. I’m not saying I’ll be working on feature after feature and suddenly I’m the most coveted production assistant or whatever title in all of Chicago, I just want steady work. And I want to make my next short film that is going to be a huge step up for me.

There’s a definitive possibility of ending up at another minimum wage job in a few months, which is part of the risk, but hey, no risk, no reward right?

We all need one point in our lives where we have to take a step, even if it’s incredibly small and minuscule, we still have to take them. I’ve taken plenty of big steps this year, and this next one is part of the process of continuing where I need to go. So then…Action.